非洲和尚----乞人憎！

你别欺人太甚， 我将以其人之道，还治其人之身！

请放马过来吧！

你的历史已遗臭万年，我将确保你未来成为众人之笑柄！

养军千日，用之一时！把握时机，期待，期待！！

Later will have to do the rest of the practical.....

At greenfield now...

These few weeks....some people are just...haha, dunno how to describe....

but my friends and I had made up our decisions....

I always challenge people, those people who I dun really like them, or should I say, their behaviour and style?

But I had never really announced my challenge to them openly. I will prepare myself quietly, and wait for a chance....an opportunity to strike, and embarass those people, just like they did to me before....

If u are not so tough, smart or strong, dun act like u are and dun show off all around, I will make sure u pay for that....a double pay for what u did to me, even that's just a moment of flash.....

家家都有本难念的经

快要回家了，就在两天之后。其实都不知道要带着什么心情好。。。。。

在这里九个月了，平常的人都应该会很高兴地收拾行李踏上归途，但我只有五十%的兴奋。

从踏上英国的第一步开始，坦白说，我从来没想过家，?/FONT>HOME SICK?#23545;我来说是个很陌生的名词。在我脑袋里每天打转的，只有她。。。。。

去年差不多这个时候，一样，我也刚从学院毕业。家人在我临毕业前表现出了无比的关怀，想要我快点回家。我的学院简直像个监牢，又有90%的异族同胞，所以，那时我想回去的心情是比现在强烈了些。

可是，我回家之后，发生了什么事呢？

那时，我安排了考取驾驶执照的日期，不时需要去练习。我也有着一些政府设定的Camping与Programs 必需参与。之后，我又必需去弄passport 及visa的东西，再加上姗姗来迟的medical report form,害我得急着赶去做检查。

虽然放假是三个月，但扣掉要做的事，那可能只是一个月半多。家人对我的态度，是完全罗唆多过支持，尤其是我爸，时常讲我没去做工，在家浪费时间！此外，我有时会要求去见一见她，爸就会说：?#22905;给你钱出国啊？看她多了会有饭吃啊？?/P>

我那时真的很讨厌我爸，因为我出国读书，他也没份出钱啊，干嘛时常要无理取闹？况且，我在家又没花他很多钱，我大多数都会去银行提款，那是自己辛苦储蓄多年的钱来的！

好了，就不算这个了，我还记得，当我成绩出来的时候，38/45 (IB 的分数格式，在此不便说明)，合了大学的要求，美美的。但，爸说：?#20320;看你的室友，可以上台拿到奖牌，人家考43/45， 你呢？?/P>

我那时很失望，觉得我爸。。。哎！人家是赢了我，没错！但人家时常晚上通宵读书，连周末那唯一可以出去的一天都待在房读书，坦白说，我做不到！何况，我既然进得了大学，又何苦要逼自己去考那么好？38 或43，一样都是进大学，又没有优待的。。。

接近去英国的时候了，我爸又有新东西讲了，说我根本不关心启程必须准备的东西，然后又不学煮菜等等，但他所谓的关心，从来都不见他帮我搜寻资料，或教我我不会做的东西。我还记得，他时常在很多人面前，数落我不会做这做那，然后看着我在那儿不知所措。。。。。。

我妈也好不到哪儿去，她最喜欢做的东西，就是?#25198;好人?#12290;有一次，我想在女友家多住几天，爸一口咬定说不可以，要我会来，第二天再去过。天啊！我和她的家，有如诺丁汉与伦敦的距离，还远些呢！他居然提出这种东西！那时，我真的很伤心，我哭了。。。。。。我不能再忍了！妈看见后，明明是她叫我找个藉口跟爸交代后，故意待在女友的家多几天再回来，但当我真的这样做时，她却责问我为什么欺骗爸爸。。。。。。并且，她还在我背后，告诉家里其他人，我为了一件小事而哭，很没用！！

我在那三个月里，对家人真的彻底失望。。。若要数，还真数不清。。。我不否认有好多事是他们帮我，但，也有好多事，是他们为我添了不必要的麻烦，也让我觉得，他们并不是真的那么关心我，他们，只是过于现实。。。

有一种预感，这三个月的暑假，我似乎又会面临他们的为难考验。。。当我一有能力，我会做的第一样事，就是 不再依赖他们。。。。。她，还真是我回去的唯一希望。。。

Heartbroken, but is my problem i thk...

Yesterday and 2day i showed a sad face to some people.

Some people may nlike to know why....

Ntg actually, maybe from my story, my friend will know my gf had a bf b4 me.

Then, few days ago, he came back.

Ntg much happen though, however, i still feel not good.

It is because, I always thk that he is a bad person, at least, worst than me...

From my knowledge, he dumped my gf when he went somewhere else to work coz he met another girl there already.

This is what he always told my gf b4 this.

Then, one year ago, he told my gf that he separate with the girl already.

From that momment, and from his message to my gf, i feel that he still love her, but she disagree with me, very much.

Then, he came back few days ago, asking for a meeting with my gf.

Right, i guess ntg will happen, so i let her go with him, with a condition, never go alone.

Then, during the meeting, he told her, actually, he doesn't have another gf.

It was just at that time, he thought too much.He didn't want her to wait for him for so long. Thus, he made up a story so that she will give up on him.

In fact, he actually regretted his action. I guess he will never imagine this, after a few months he said that story, i showed up and we become bf and gf.

Although he already said he wont do anythg to us, coz he respect me.

ya true....But i really cant get through it easily.

He always has the same topic with her, will do her favourite thgs, will ask bout her family, knows many of her frens....

U know???The only thg i actually feel that im better than him is....I wont hurt her that way like he did....

but now, if he dun really find a girl outside, he left her is like.....thinking for her sake.....so i feel that suddenly im so small......and seems like im the third party....

I dunno....even the words from my gf herself, cant comfort me....it is like.........if some1 will really consider both of us, may be all of them will say he is better....

wat's the most sensitive thg?i dunno....but i knew that all of them are not good stuff....all are hurting me.....

I dun feel like care bout other people's stuff anymore, as i really need time to cure....

Please....for this reason, leave me alone.....im thking too much i know...But i jz need it......